Life in a Metro

New Year resolutions seem to have come a month in advance for a country currently seething with the aftermath of the recent terrorist attacks. Amidst slogans of 'Enough is Enough' and 'War on terror' lies the underlying resolve to do something. That something has now become my worst nightmare.

Someone once said it's best to realize your worst nightmare. Because then you can only move one way and that's upwards. To me it made complete sense until the recent turn of events brought terror to my door step. I always believed when your worst dream comes true, you realize its not so bad after all and along with it comes the strength to deal with it. But now all those beliefs and all those cliches have been put to test.

And sadly i see them failing. At least in this one off case where the nightmare just doesn't end. And each time you think 'this too shall pass' it rams into you like a bullet, shattering all those newly adjusted beliefs after your last nightmare. Maybe it's also the sickness talking but personally i feel both helpless and hapless. More than the terror it's this pang of despair I am fighting.

Everything that had to be said about the terrorist attacks has already been said and delving further would only trivialize a reality that bites. And bites not just those who have been affected directly but the rest of us who seem to be standing next in the line of fire. The Intelligence (A concept i fail to understand ) has been caught napping, the netas have been caught off guard, the public and the media have been awakened. May I dare say, I see a silver lining in this atmosphere of gloom and impending doom.

If i had the conviction of Barack Obama I would say 'Yes we can' . But the cynical side of me doesn't allow me to mistake this transitory semblance of a national awakening to be a longstanding reality. Though i wait in anticipation to be proved wrong.

Caprice of fate

So here am on a saturday morning posting my first blog. I wanted to do this for a while but never really got round to doing it.But fate has its own way of fulfilling our demands. So think twice before hoping and wishing even to yourself because you never know how and when your wish might come true. Infact it'll come and bite you in the ass just when you're least expecting it.

So cut to a couple of months back when i thought my glass was half empty and nothing seemed to swing my way. While i was grappling with a sucky work life and crashing MBA dreams, i often found myself complaining about lack of time to do things i love doing. Reading, for instance had taken a back seat.

But tough times don't last forever and by some quirk of fate the MBA dream materialized into reality. The timing seemed perfect. All of a sudden life was smiling back at me. But i've learnt to take all good things with a pinch of salt. It all seemed too good to be true. I would have loved to believe i had worked hard for it and deserved every bit of it. But i had learnt better than that in the last few years of my adult life.

Of course i had expected a glitch somewhere along the way but a hurdle still seemed far fetched.
I think i underestimated the twists and turns there are in this long windy road called life. It turned around so fast that now i have all the time in the world. But life isn't cruel. Its got plenty of hoops for us to jump. But thats where the fun lies. Everyone loves a happy ending. Happy endings are boring. A bit of calamity, now thats the stuff that makes it interesting.

So whoever said "No one can escape the caprice of fate" wasn't kidding. So even though MBA dreams are lurking somewhere in the background, for now the glass is still half full. Unless ofcourse destiny decides to take another unexpected turn and catch me on unfamiliar territory again.